what do i know?

Periodically she longs to see what he sees when he looks at her.
The very thoughts that cross his mind are the honest words that will never pass through his lips. What does he see? Does his heart race at the thought of her, pumping adrenline throughout his body making him feel like superman? Does he think mother, the one that will bring life to his own? Or does he merely go on, thoughts uninterupted and unfeeling towards her? Those few seconds where his eyes meet hers, when his mind registers his thoughts, those moments are the only ones where his true feelings arise. And in that time she will never know.



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a forgotten lie

2 Months.
2 Months left until she comes.
I have gone back to the way I was in the begining. All that seems to matter to me now is him. He can treat me like crap and i just shrug it off.

You know its bad when things like that don't even affect me anymore.



Peace&Love

pornstars on the board

Its a small crime, with big consequences.


I am now coming to the end of my 3rd month, and I'm even more terrified now than I ever was. I just want this whole thing to be over. If i had a choice i would lose this baby, and go on with my life...without him....




Peace&Love

Gravity Fighter

I am happy.
Peace&Love

I'll be gone

Forever she will wait for him.

He said so many sweet things last night. It made me feel so good. And even though he hurt me things are good with us.


Peace&Love

Liar and a theif

I flirt and bat my lashes at him even though the truth is imminent. I feel horrid about it and yet i still cant stop.


Peace&Love

please dont lose hold

I have come to block.