pushing and pulling me down

we did it

I feel terrible. It wasn't bad, he wasn't bad. I just didn't expect it to be like that. Its not how I pictured it. Its wasn't how I wanted it.


Peace&Love

But my heart.

I'm seeing him again today. I'm really nervous.



Peace&Love

I don't know if I should stay

He wants me to come over tomorrow. I hope I can. I've been really sick lately, because I've recently stop smoking. I feel like shit and he seems to make it better.


I love him.
Peace&Love

We don't have to look back now

I love him
I love him not.
I love him.
I love him not.
God I need a little help, just a hint of some kind. His phone is discontected at the moment, I don't know what this means. I haven't talked to him all day except for a few waves and hellos before he went to ISD. I just hope that not having my phone is going to end this. Because this seems to be all thats making me happy these days.

Peace&Love

Temptation

I never knew going slow could be this hard.

I miss him already and its only been a few hours. I don't have my phone, my mom is pmsing. Stupid #%$!@*. I'm so mad. I took a new picture today. I really like it. I'm actually tired tonight. No sex.

Peace&Love

don't look so blue

trying to forget love cause loves forgotten me
you've never been so used
my little decoy.

I miss her.
I miss him.
I love him.
Lovelovelovelovelovelove.
In his arms I forget for a minute. I forget everything. When he kisses me, all is well. His lips on mine, the way his arms wrap around me. Its perfect.


This will not end well I fear.

Peace&Love