high tide, or a trainwreck?

its been to long
i have the shakes
the thing is i don't need drugs
i need you
I'm in withdrawal
going so long without your touch
i feel like crap
your done with me so
I'm...I'm nothing to you
to anybody
i wish i could change your mind.

The funny thing is that I can't seem to go anywhere without looking for you. In the halls, in the mall, on my space, other peoples phones. Creepy i know, but i cant help it. When your name is mentioned its like a whole bucket load of butterflies are fluttering in my stomach. When i see you i try and pretend not to, but i know you see me. I know your looking at me. Every time i hear that song i think of how you sound singing it to me. How happy we were when you loved me. I cant seem to talk to you without thinking of your lips on hers. Kissing her the way you kissed me, before the end came. You just destroyed me, but i never showed it. Nobody knew, i just smiled and went on pretending. That is until i got home, then it all came undone. It was like there were reserves of tears in the back of my head because they just kept coming. This is crazy. Its been six days since we last kissed, two since we last talked and five since I ended this disaster.


i feel so alone